Prince Harry says he was unable to 'cry or feel' after Diana's death

Prince Harry says he was unable to ‘cry or feel’ after Diana’s death and it wasn’t until he was 28 ‘when a circumstance happened’ that his emotions were ‘sprayed all over the wall’ and ‘it was chaos’

• Prince Harry opens up about the trauma he felt after the death of his mother 

Prince Harry spoke about his inability ‘to feel or cry’ after the death of his mother until years later when his emotions ‘sprayed everywhere’ in his newly released Netflix documentary. 

In episode 4 of the Sussex’s Heart Of Invictus series, launched today, Harry shares a one-to-one moment with Darrell Ling, competing in the games in the indoor rowing category for Canada.

As the pair opened up to each other about trauma, Darrell told him: ‘I’m glad you’ve been through this stuff and know how we feel’.

Harry admitted he can’t ‘pretend to know what you’ve been through’ but spoke about how the trauma of losing his mother hit him due to a ‘circumstance’ at the age of 28 – and how everything became ‘chaos’.

He revealed a therapist advised him to put himself in a glass jar, and take control of what can come in and what stays out.   

‘I had that moment in my life where I didn’t know about it but because of the trauma of losing my mum when I was 12, for all those years, I had no emotion, I was unable to cry, I was unable to feel. I didn’t know it at the time,’ he said. 

‘And it wasn’t until later in my life aged 28 there was a circumstance that happened that the first few bubbles started coming out and then suddenly it was like someone shook and it went ‘poof’.. and then it was chaos.

In episode 4 of the Sussex’s Heart Of Invictus series, launched today, Harry shares a one-to-one moment with Darrell Ling, competing in the games in the indoor rowing category for Canada

Harry spoke about how the trauma of losing his mother hit him due to a ‘circumstance’ at the age of 28 – and how everything became ‘chaos’

Prince Harry spoke about his inability ‘to feel or cry’ after the death of Diana 

Earl Spencer, Prince William, Prince Harry and the Prince of Wales at the funeral of Princess Diana in 1997

‘My emotions were sprayed all over the wall everywhere I went and I was like, how the hell do I contain this? 

‘I’ve gone from nothing to everything and I now need to get a glass jar and put myself in it, put myself in it, leave the lid open and my therapist said ‘you choose what comes in and everything else bounces off’.’

Darrell chatted to Harry about his own ‘demons’ and how he used to have hundreds.

He tells the Duke of Sussex he wasn’t going to row but his coach pushed him into it, because he knew he could do it.

‘But I got demons saying you’re not going to do this. You get these things and you just got to take them off your shoulder,’ the rower said. 

In a lighter moment during their interaction, Harry asks him if he has any tattoos. 

As Darrell stands up and turns around Harry jokes ‘if it’s on your a** I don’t know if I want to see it.’ 

As the pair talked, in a poignant moment, Harry told Darrell: ‘I’m so happy you’re here’. 

The pair opened up to each other about traumas on the new Netflix documentary

Darrell chatted to Harry about his own ‘demons’ and how he used to have hundreds

The Sussexes’ latest project in their £80million deal with Netflix was released this morning,

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In another episode The Duke of Sussex also said that he was not aware of the trauma he still had from his mother Princess Diana dying in Paris in August 1997 when he was aged just 12.

Harry said that when he returned from war in 2008, the ‘biggest struggle for me was no one around me really could help’, adding: ‘I didn’t have that support structure, that network or that expert advice to identify what was actually going on with me.’

He also told the show: ‘Unfortunately like most of us the first time you consider therapy is when you are lying on the floor in the foetal position probably wishing you had dealt with some of this stuff previously. And that’s what I really want to change.’

All five episodes of the docuseries were made available at 8am UK time (midnight California time), following prior speculation that it had been cancelled by Netflix.

The show has been released ahead of next month’s Invictus Games which will be in Dusseldorf from September 9 over eight days and attended by Harry and Meghan.

Harry is its executive producer and the show forms part of the Sussexes’ deal with Netflix – with their main output so far being last year’s controversial Harry & Meghan documentary which included a series of swipes at members of the Royal Family.

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